12-11-13

I don't know how I feel anymore.
I still feel sad.
And alone.
But not so much anymore.
I feel numb.

When I should be really sad, I'm not.
When someone ditches me, I don't care.
When someone say's something mean, I don't care.
When my dad yells or act's like a child or gets drunk, I don't care.

I wish I could care, but I don't.

I keep crying, but I don't know why.

I feel nothing when I cry, it's almost like my mind is telling my body that I should feel something, so it forces tears.