Some how I knew this would happen when I got that close to you. But I didn't care You could have broken my entire being (Which you basically did internally) And I wold still want to be with you and choose you every second. Every chance I get.

And seeing that you're doing things that poison your body absolutely kills me. It makes me want to die even more. And I know you'll never see these stupid posts. But I wish that I could just take all of what you're doing to yourself away. Take all the alcohol and drugs, and maybe even sex. I don't know anymore. But I wish I could just help you, get rid of it. If it was possible I would endour it all so you wouldn't have to, and you wouldn't have the consequences in the future, I would.

But I can't. And I hope that sooner rather than later you see how you're hurting yourself.